Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Tuesday May 17 - nails and a new hard hat.

Wow.  I just don't know how I'm going to be able to do this. 

My room mate is getting worse and worse.  The bad part - I don't really have anywhere to go.  I thought I might, but that doesn't look like it's so anymore.

I just might have to quit my job and leave town.  No job.  No money.  No where to live.  I am getting downright scared. 

It might have been a HUGE mistake, but I just told my room mate how scared I am and why.  I need him to stop this.  If he doesn't, I have no choice.  I'll have to go.

I wanted to have enough saved for my SF trip later this fall before I made any decisions.  I guess if I could stick it out, I could have that in about 2 months.  Sooner if I stopped all extra spending.  But I need some spending money.  I'll loose my mind if I don't get away once in a while.

On a brighter note, I did my nails last night.  Hot pink for my toes.  I did something different on my hands.  I am getting a pic of them done now.

What do you think?  I know. It's not the best image.  My iPhone tends to take blurry shots when it's detail stuff like this.  I've got a darker color glitter on the tips, with a small white band above them.  I did them myself at home.  A little shaky, but practice makes perfect right...

Oh, and my hard hat came in last night. 

I love pink.  In case you couldn't tell...

I am really working with my distress tolerance techniques this past week.  Looks like I'll have to keep it up indefinitely.  Guess I should get out my old blogs with the information and see what else I can do to make it through this ...

I hope Ryan is okay today.  A friend of mine here in town.  Sent me a text after 3am.  I'm kind of worried about it.  He knows about my blogs.  Not sure if he's reading them still or not, but if he is, I hope you are okay Ryan.  I'm here to talk, or just listen.  Whatever.  I get it.  Been there.  I would even say done that.  Let's just say I completely get where your stuck.  I'm well on my way there too, with the way the room mate is treating me...

Anyhow, on to better and brighter thoughts.

The scale was good to me again today.  Down to 221.2lbs.  Lowest since I re-started this journey.  Here's hoping it keeps going down.   My overall goal is to loose a total of at least 35lbs.  At most - 45lbs.  But I've found with running, my body will stop when it's done loosing.  So I'm just focusing on eating well.  I need to have the right fuel for my running training.  If I eat well, and keep training, the weight will drop.  It may not drop fast, but it will drop.

Today I'm back in my size 31jeans.  Can't wait til I get back into my 29's.  I can't believe I ever fit 29's.  Or that 30's were loose on me.  I'm getting there.  Right now, the 31's are snug.  Not overly tight.  Just snug.

I keep rambling.  I'm waiting for my pic of my hard hat to come through my email.  Then I can grab it and drop it here.  Besides, this is one of my distress tolerance tools.  To write it all out of my head and heart.  Get it down and out of me.  Seeing it in writing often helps me realize it's not as big an issue as it seems to be in my head.  Rolling around in there.  Driving me crazy....

The email pic still isn't here, so I went online and grabbed the pic of my hard hat there.  I love it.  Not the neon pink one they had here in town. 

1 comment:

  1. I like the nails, i think they are cute. And the hardhat sounds pretty cool.