I'm off work. At Colin's house again. Mostly because I don't have anywhere else to go.
I feel myself caving again. Just give in. If you suck up and beg enough he'll stop this. You can handle his regualr tyrades easier than this...
No I Can't!!! I deserve better. I Can't tell him I'm sorry. I'm not. I was not wrong. I didn't do anything. ANYTHING!!!! I don't need to appologize. He does.
He owes me more than he can ever repay. I did not deserve the treatment I got on the way home from Calgary. Even the most heartless a$$ would have been more caring and supportive with what was going on.
I promised myself at Christmas I wouldn't let him do this to me again. And yet, here I am. Thursday night will be the last time I see him for a few days. Thank GOD. Now if I can make it through to Friday morning. It'll all be okay.
But right now I'm thinking I'll have trouble making it through tonight.
On a better note, I have found someone to install the trailer hitch for me. They are taking one I already have, altering it, then installing it for me. They have time to install it on Saturday the 28th. I can hold out until then right??? Besides, if I have to leave sooner, I'm sure I can figure it out. I just have no where to go...
He's not here yet. I'm kind of hoping he stays away. See's my van, and chooses to not come around. I really need to find an out. I just don't know if I can do this anymore.