I am still overwhelmed with anxious energy right now. I just had to keep writing.
I updated my SP blog. In it, I recommitted to finding a path to follow to help me stay focused over this next week. It's going to be tough, but with a plan to focus on, I should be able to make it.
As I write this, I am texting my room mate. Letting him know I realize he's hurting and I am sorry. I am sorry I can't help him with that hurt. Basically, I am being honest with him about what I'm feeling. Don't think it'll help, but it is what it is.
So, what am I going to do.
Today is Wednesday. Do I even want to go for wings? I'm not really sure. Am I going to wait around for an invitation from Colin? I would love to say no, but what do I do if he asks? What do I say? Do I go just to keep the peace? Or do I make an excuse to not go? I really don't even know anyone else to go to wings with. And I don't want to go to the bar for wings alone. Just not my thing. Not that bar anyhow.
Maybe I should think of something else for supper. A nice home cooked supper would be nice tonight. Especially since I'll be running for lunch today. Yep. I think that's the plan. Cook a nice dinner at home. Chicken breasts. Veggies. A potato or two. Yep. That sounds yummy.
Running W5D1HM today. That'll help me sleep tonight.
Tomorrow is Thursday. Hmm. Might run again at lunch. Depends on how today goes. How I feel tomorrow morning. Listen to my body. That's the key. Wouldn't mind being able to go running tomorrow though. It helps me work off this nervous energy I am building up right now.
Thursday is Steak Night in town. The steaks at the Beef are not very good. We stopped going months ago. I won't be going. But I do need to have a plan for tomorrow night. Otherwise I'll be sitting around waiting for Colin to come around again. So NOT a good idea. Maybe I should find someone to go for supper with tomorrow night. I have been texting someone here lately. I don't think there's any chemistry, but supper would be nice. Or maybe I should just avoid that can of worms all together.
Marc has been asking me to come over and see the place. He has offered me a room to rent. Maybe that's not a good idea either tomorrow. I don't really know.
Friday I know. I'm going to Noonan, ND. My new hardhat will be in. And it's prime rib night. Yummy. And I'll be going, Colin or no Colin.
Saturday morning I have a race to run.
Maybe right after the race I should leave town. Go to Regina for the weekend again. Give Colin his space. Who knows. I really shouldn't spend the money on a road trip again. My motorcycle needs new tires. Should really put the $$ there and into savings for SF this October.
I know. I need to clean up my resume and get it out to Enbridge. I'll need to be dressed appropriately, so I can't deliver it today. Why not tomorrow? I can a fix and print it today. Then deliver it tomorrow. Then wait. The worst that can happen? They don't call. No biggie.