I really needed to see this today. Now I need to hold it close to my heart and thoughts, and live by it.
I almost met up with Terry last night. I don't think meeting up with him is the bad thing. But he wanted to go to his place and watch movies. I am so glad I am still too freaked out by what happened to go out to the farm again.
We did text for a while though.
I don't know why I'm drawn to him again. No idea. When I saw him last week, I realized there is nothing physically drawing me to him.
I think it's the lost puppy thing he's got going on. My desire/want/need to help others.
And seeing him so vulnerable on Sunday. I never thought I'd see it again.
But I need to remember what happened last time. He not only ran scared, he hurt me badly. Humiliated me. Why would I open myself up to that again? I deserve so much better. I have so much better. What I have now is so NOT worth risking for this looser. Yes, he's a looser. I know it.