wow. What a night - and no not a good one.
Tammy is so much worse than I thought. Last night I saw her doing much stronger drugs than I ever thought she'd ever do. Just couldn't believe what I was seeing.
I knew she had drug issues, but I didn't think she did anything harder than pot. What an eye opener.
Terry too. He was there. I saw him the night before. We were all having drinks and a bonfire at Tammy's. Of course, there was pot. There's always pot. No biggie.
Terry was acting differently though. He was not crowding me, but almost hovering. It was strange. I just kept an eye on him and what he was up to. He didn't try anything. He kept getting me drinks. Then when I fell asleep - yes fell asleep not passed out - he made sure I was in a bed with a good pillow and left. As soon as his truck pulled out, I was up and out of bed again and out with everyone. I just needed some down time and I was right back up and in it again for a while.
Last night, same kind of thing. He was just being so considerate. Seeing him high like that was a major turn off. Not that he ever had a chance of turning me on again anyway, but wow.
We went for a short walk around the farm. He made sure I had a warm enough coat. And we just talked. When he and Chad left, he asked me if it would be okay to get a hold of me to talk again. I told him he knew where to find me.
I don't expect him to contact me any time soon. Tammy and her boarder went to Regina today for something. I'm assuming he's with them. Just a good reminder of how he was before, and that I NEVER want to go back there again. NEVER!
But then why can't I get this out of my head???