Monday, July 4, 2011

Today's Reflection

Something we were withholding made us weak, until we found it was ourselves.
- Robert Frost

Who is standing in your way?

Imagine someone regularly tying small weights around your ankles as you try to climb a mountain. Doesn't sound fair, does it? But that's exactly what you can do to yourself, a little bit at a time, if you don't watch out. When you think of who and what is standing in the way of your dreams, it's easy to forget your own responsibility. Even the best of us can be guilty of unknowingly hurting our own progress. Procrastination, lateness, being disorganized, pessimism, not being honest with yourself, severe self-criticism, downplaying achievements, focusing only on weaknesses while ignoring strengths, keeping goals a secret, demanding perfection, giving up after a small setback--these are all ways you can make it tough to be (and do) your best. Smart systems, the right attitude, and a promise to keep going no matter what will make a world of difference.


I get this one. I do it to myself all the time. I am actually in danger of doing it to myself again right now.

I woke up this morning feeling like such a fool. This after a night where I couldn't sleep. It's taking all I have to not break down and cry right here at my desk. I'm pretty sure those around me here today know something is very wrong.

I just can't seem to find it in me to pull out of this right now. I know I need to. I need to move onward and forward. It's the only way I'm going to get where I need to be. It's the only way I'm going to find my motivation again. It's the only way I'm going to be able to push myself to move forward, and to not slip back into old habits.

I just don't even want to right now.

I just don't know if I can snap out of this. I spent most of my day yesterday crying. Why does it have to drag on like this? Why can't I just decide to put it behind me and move on?

I know. This is where I can show what I'm really made of. I can prove that I am stronger than this obstacle.

I can show him just what he's missing out on.

I can prove to EVERYONE including me, that I am stronger than even I think.

Right now, I'm the only one standing in my way. He's gone. In reality, he never should have been viewed as an obstacle.

I need to find a way to get past this hurt and anger, and tap into my inner strength. Find it in me to fight back. The sooner the better.

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